Ready or Not

College was a big step last year and I didn't have a lot of people I called friends in the beginning of the semester so I really missed the friendships that I had at home. There's something about the people that you have grown up with that goes beyond the shared experiences and inside jokes. My friends from then can read me like a book although it's probably not too difficult considering my heart beats outside my chest. But they can understand.

Ready or Not

We're coming to a new step
Whether ready or not
Things have got to change, dear
Whether ready or not

   So know you'll never leave
   My memories
   So take this melody
   With you

Strength seems to follow you
Wherever you go
Let Him be all of you
Let it overflow

We're coming to a new step
Whether ready or not
Things have got to change, dear
Whether ready or not

Ready or not
Ready or not
Ready or not
Ready or not...

Ocean Over Head

Well, I still have a lot of songs to catch up with so I'm just going to keep posting my old ones. I don't even remember how long ago I wrote Ocean Over Head but it is a really fun song to play especially with the band. It is short and reflects a lot of my early writing of salvation. I think that the song is generally negatively focused and short of the redemptive qualities of reality and rescue. But sometimes that is just how we feel.

Ocean Over Head

Here comes the storm
to drag me down

Pulling me away from the shores

I'm drifting away, I'm drifting away

            Oh the ocean is flying over my head

            Flying over my head [x2]

The darkness rolls in

the sun gives way

My soul cries out to be saved

I'm calling out, I'm calling out

Ocean Over Head is the second song in the video:)

That Made it All This Way

Over the summer I was remembering an old friendship of mine from last year that didn't end well and I still don't really know why. I guess this was just venting about it!

That Made it All This Way
It's like I always say
I'm just a fool full of mistakes
But I've been looking back
And I can't find the steps to retrace

    Good intentions were never gone
    Tell me what did I do so wrong
    That made it all this way

Conclusion
That seems to lack  any solution
Feet tied to all
that is left undone

Apparently
Apology
Can never be enough

I remember how it all began
But I don't know why this made it stop

    Good intentions were never gone
    Tell me what did I do so wrong
    That made it all this way

 

What to Say

Another song about my inadequacies. This time it's about not knowing how to deal with a situation and praying and asking for the right words. I've found these words to be applicable many times since then. Especially the first two lines. I am not as wise as I wish I was. I'm working on it! But I'm not there and probably never will be. But I can pray for the right motives and words. Daniel 2:20-21 says "Blessed be the name of God forever and ever, to whom belong wisdom and might. He changes times and seasons; he removes kings and sets up kings; he gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding"

What to Say
I'm not as wise as I wish I was
Otherwise I wouldn't be here
Understanding starts to sway
Thinking about what I'm gonna say
Thinking about what I'm gonna say

The dim lit wall paints the scenes
Of conversations crawling through my head
What was clear, falls to gray
Thinking about what I'm gonna say
Thinking about what I'm gonna say

Under the veil, these motives try to find themselves
And I know I fail but let your words bring truth
Cause I know that I cannot do this on my own

Give me the words
Give me the words
I can't do this alone

Thinking about what I'm gonna say
Thinking about what I'm gonna say
Praying about what I'm gonna say

The Shore

Well, I guess I haven't really posted anything on here for quite some time. So I'm going to try starting back up again! I need to keep my two or three readers happy, you know? I changed the blog title to From This Place which is a song that I wrote recently which I felt is a better description of myself and whoever reads this. But I'll post that later, I have a lot of old songs that aren't on here yet either! So here is The Shore. Probably one of the more catchy songs because somehow it ends up stuck in people's heads. I think that's a good thing? I was going to link a video of it but I don't actually have one so maybe later I will add it..
This song is basically about a friend who is going through a really hard time and for whatever reason, you can't talk to them or get through to them. I think the metaphor is pretty straightforward;)


The Shore
There's nothing but waves all around you
The sun and its rays are far from your view
I wish I was there to get you through
To get you through

But I'm on the shore
I'm on the shore
I'm on the shore
I'm on the shore

And I know that you try to hold close to this ship
But strength starts to fade and you lose your grip
Call out to the one who made waters still
Made waters still

The waves are coming o're the ship you try to steer
The wind is pushing you aside
You're going down
 So call out

Come to an End

The things of this world are so short-lived. Pain, sadness, wars, confusion... It's all temporary when you are in Christ and you have assurance of salvation. Psalm 37:2 says "For they will soon fade like the grass and wither like the green herb." Let us not look at what will soon disappear but at Him that is eternal.

Come to an End

I can see the storms
Tear apart the city
But when I'm in your arms
I know that will come to an end
I know that will come to an end

I can hear the wars
Thundering in the distance
But when I know I'm yours
I know that will come to an end
I know that will come to an end

I can see the eyes
Staring right through me
So break down my disguise
Cause I know that will come to an end
I know that will come to an end

I only wish I knew
My mind just keeps on running
But when I'm here with you
I know that will come to an end
I know that will come to an end

I can see the world
And all it has to give
But let me look to you
You're the God who truly lives
You're the God who truly lives!

And So It Is Here

God sees me in the places that I have fallen and He arrives. And so it is here that I have fallen and yet it is the same place that He has picked me up. It is a time of desperation. Calling out to the only one that is the true and faithful savior. The weight that the world brings is so great. It almost holds down my chest so I can't get enough air to call out. But He comes to me where I am and brings His grace of rescue.


And So It Is Here

[verse 1]
And so it is here, that I have woken
In the same place that you told me to flee

[pre-chorus]
Oh breath, fading from my lungs
losing the air I need to call to you

[chorus]
And so it is here, that you have come to save
The ground is fading, but you remain the same
Lord won't you lift
Lord won't you lift me
Lord won't you lift me up
to you

[verse 2]
And so it is here, that you have stood by me
Even when I drift away

[pre-chorus]
[chorus x 2]
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[tag]
Lord lift this sinner,
Lord lift this sinner,
Lord lift this sinner